Skinny Thinking Daily Thoughts — #2

These 242 thoughts are daily reminders to help you align with your true self and cultivate a wise, pragmatic relationship with food and your body.

2.
How do you relate to food? As a lover, a friend, a god, an
enemy, a source of nutrition? What is your image of yourself in
relationship to food? What are the thoughts and self-images that
mediate between you and food? When you remove all of the
thoughts and images that mediate between you and food, what’s
left? Just a simple, pragmatic relationship with food.

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Food Matrix — List Your Comfort Foods

Food Matrix of Pleasure/Comfort Foods

 

Physically & Emotionally

Addictive

Emotionally Addictive
Food made with sugar and/or chocolate such as: Salty fried foods:
Bakery goods Potato chips
Ice cream French fries
Candy Fried chicken
Chocolates Salty foods:
Soft drinks Pretzels
Milk shakes Popcorn
Starchy foods:
Bread
Pancakes
Waffles
Grits
Salty fatty foods:
Butter
Cheese
Nuts and nut butters
Hamburgers
Hot dogs
Fatty starchy foods:
Pizza
Quesadillas

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DAY 2 – How Do You Think About Food?

Friends-
Freedom is Possible isn’t it?
You have begun your journey and now you are on your way!  Here, in Day 2  you will be taking your First Step:  Wise Thinking
 
Congratulations!
You are about to take the first step on your exciting journey toward freedom and healing. Imagine how you will feel when you arrive. Worries about food and your weight are now relics of your past. What a relief! If you put The Five Steps into practice, I promise you that feeling of freedom will be your everyday experience.

The First Step: Wise Thinking is my all time favorite because it was the piece of the puzzle that I had been missing for thirty-five years. If you truly want to heal your food and weight issues, Wise Thinking is the opportunity you’ve been waiting for. If you don’t address it, chances are you’ll keep yo-yoing and never heal permanently.

To fully embrace it means creating an entirely new, healthy mental relationship with food. Fasten your seatbelt and get ready to heal!

In this chapter you’ll learn how to think differently about food and, hopefully, think very little about it, if at all, when it’s not time to eat. You’ll do this by busting through your food illusion and coming to see the truth, the whole picture about food.

Once you see the truth, there’s no going back. You’ll learn helpful strategies to stop wearing a path to the fridge, such as recognizing when the Pleasure Seeking Child is on the scene and learning to ignore her, speaking and living from your heart, connecting with a life purpose that feels engaging and fulfilling, feeding your soul rather than overfilling your stomach, and implementing kung fu for cravings and emotional eating. Without further ado, let’s begin!

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Skinny Thinking — Daily Thoughts #1

These 242 thoughts are daily reminders to help you align with your true self and cultivate a wise, pragmatic relationship with food and your body.

1.
There’s a way of thinking about food that’s a problem, and a
way of thinking about it that isn’t a problem, and the
problematic way corresponds to feeling out of control around
food and to having a heavier body. Your relationship with food,
which is based on how you think about it, makes all the
difference. You have different relationships with your mother,
your brother, your friend, your boss, and your lover, and you
think about all of those people differently. In the same way, you
have an easy or challenging relationship with food, depending
on the way you habitually think about it.

DAY 1 — Five Minute Freedom Exercise

It’s Day 1 of your Skinny Thinking Challenge!
 
Congratulations!
Here is your Five Minute Freedom Exercise for Day.
You will also find that this exercise has been provided in an attachment for you to print and work on separately.
To make the best use of these Daily Exercises, it is advised to print the attached and keep each days exercise together in a folder or notebook so you can have a record of your journey to changing your relationship with food, weight and your body.
Enjoy Day 1~
Laura
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Nov 23th — Nooner and Core Class

img_1345I was excited to come to class, even though I was still sore, today. My trainer Stephanie’s attitude is so irresistible and powerful. She lifts your spirits up.
So, I was excited until I saw the warmup-up.
Ok, I know we are not supposed to be negative but I must get it out. 🙂
UGH, more running! Ay Dios Mio! Tell me it’s not so. I’ve been running since Sunday and I was not in the mood for more running. Not that I am ever looking forward to running but today my legs were sore and my heel was hurting even more. I was not a very happy camper.

But I was not going to quit and with a smile I did my warm-up giving it my all.
Then the fun started with a 22-station obstacle course. I wish I could say I did all the stations but I didn’t. I just couldn’t in the allowed time but I came close to finishing and that is something to be proud of.

I gave it my best and it made me happy.

It’s always a great feeling when you are able to finish what you started.
My high was strong that when our trainer mentioned “Sally” I just thought. “Bring it!”
For those that you don’t know who is Sally. Sally is “Flower” by Moby and basically you squat down when you hear “Green Sally down” and get up when you hear “Green Sally up” and then when you hear “Old miss lucy’s dead…” you squat down and pulse or hold it.

Try it – I dare you.

After all that, I stayed over and did Stephanie’s  30 min core class. That was an intense class.
I am looking forward to having a strong core. 

Nov 22nd — Never Miss Leg Day Tuesday

img_1292Today was leg day and I wasn’t looking forward to going because my thighs are still very sore.
I haven’t told you I have an accountability partner (AP) who is making me stick to my workouts no matter what. He want’s to help me succeed and while he is far away he can still help me.

I am mentioning my AP because he was expecting me to go and work out today and…………………
…………..
I really really really didn’t want to work out but I knew I had to find a valid excuse backed by medical science.
Surely, I could google an article that would say

“You can take the day off when your muscles are sore.”

Well, not only did I not find such article but also my AP was not impressed with me trying to convince him that I needed a day off. He clearly told me that it didn’t matter what I showed him and I will still go and workout. That wasn’t all he added that if I didn’t go he would be very disappointed in me.

Sigh

4 pm came and off I went. Crying, Ok I wasn’t really crying, but I was dreading the pain that I was to endure. I didn’t want to feel that kind of pain.  I was tired — my body was tired.

Deep breaths

Obviously, I survived. I didn’t die but this workout tested my resolve. The running warm-up almost did me in and the circuit training was hard. I couldn’t help but to feel deflated that I couldn’t do the exercises as I normally could.

Through the workout, I fought my way through the negative thoughts and focused on the fact that I was here. That I was burning calories and that in the long run it was going to help me even if I didn’t work to my full capacity.

In the end, I was full of endorphins and I felt very good.
And thanks to my AP, I was glad I went.

Nov 20 — Sunday Funday

img_1153I woke up feeling hungover but it wasn’t because I had drank the night before. It mostly had to do with lack of sleep due to some stress and bad dreams.
My desire to exercise as planned was quickly fleeting. I could feel my dark mood trying to take over and while my rational mind knew that if I went and worked out I would feel better, my emotional side didn’t want to. That side wanted to wallow in her disappointment. Wrap herself in it and feel the warmness that only apathy can bring.
It was a battle because I didn’t want to succumb to negative emotions. Letting indifference take hold of me is never good for me and the people around me.
It was 7 am now and slowly I started to put on my gym clothes.

Fuck, it’s cold I should just stay home

I am not kidding when I tell you that I was like this girl in this video — trying desperately to talk myself into going to The Camp.

By 7:30 am, I was dressed, ate a protein bar, was ready to go but I was still here!
I needed a push and while I didn’t want to go there, because I wasn’t happy with him, I went there. Regardless of how I felt I knew that if I believed I was going to let him down (even if that wasn’t the case) I would feel worse. So, I just made myself believe.
Sometimes, it’s that easy. The mind is powerful.

And now it was 7:45 am and I needed to leave or I would be late and trust me you don’t want to be late for Stephanie’s class.

It won’t be a surprise for you all to read that my workout was just what I needed and it turned out even better when I saw my friend there. We worked out together doing the warm-up from hell and even a harder workout.
It has been a while since I last worked out and as I went through the stations could feel how weak I’ve gotten. 😦 I lost all my strength and stamina but as my friend told me the recovery will be faster and I will get it back quickly.
I finished the workout feeling tired but quite accomplished at what I was able to do.  I always do better when I work out with a partner.  They give me that extra incentive to push just a little harder.

I was ready to go home, thinking of the nice shower I was going to indulge in, when hear his voice behind me
“You ARE staying for core…”

Damn, I am going to be VERY sore tomorrow.

I Didn’t Feel Fat…

omg

I didn’t feel fat
Until I saw the number
Blinking back at me

Nothing has changed
Since yesterday, except
Maybe a pound, two, or five?

Deep breaths
In through the nose
Out through the mouth

You are healthy
You are beautiful
There is nothing wrong with you

I need to believe this

Still…

Numbers don’t lie
I am fat…

Choices

The choices we make along the way,
Will determine how we will spend our day.

We have a choice about how we feel,
By the food we eat at every meal.

How about a hamburger, fries and a pop?
I will choose a chicken salad with nothing on top.

This is a day when friends are together,
Cake, ice cream and lovely weather.

What will I do when tempted this way?
Should I go home or can I stay?

I must remember I am strong and free,
I am going to be the person I want to be.

When I eat healthy and stay in charge,
I can wear a small instead of a large.

Inconsistent

conflict

To battle these two sides of me isn’t easy. 😦
Bottom line I need to heal. I’ll take a few days off to do what I need to do and then I need to move forward. I need to heal.
Perhaps to truly heal, I need to align my mind, body and spirit so they all work together in harmony. In this way I will be able to perceive and act from my true self, as opposed to acting from my ego, or subconscious.

I think that the most important thing is for me to be aware of “the present” the “now moment”. Instead of allowing my thoughts to drift to the past or even the future. I know that is my demise.

What I need to do is to be aware of what is happening here, right now. If I am able to keep aware of these events, in all these moments, I might be able to heal and not care if other people know how torn and broken I am.

Conflicted and Torn

Fuck this inconsistent turmoil inside me
I’m so conflicted
I can’t think straight
I am being torn at the seams

I want to run and hide
But being responsible is pulling me out
“Be strong and it will ease the pain”, they say
I want to believe

“It’s not working!”, I cry in anguish

“Make it work”
“Be realistic”
“I know you can do this”
A promising distant hum chants

Being reasonable feels so wrong and unkind
However being selfless is driving me insane
I wonder if peace I will ever find
While not causing my loved ones and myself more pain